Unblock my heart

aiks.....

2005-12-13T03:35:00.000+08:00

www.kenny-o-logy.blogspot.com . he he. well, enjoy.

back-

2005-11-28T13:25:00.000+08:00

Lee Sum Wan : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan?

Mr.Saw Lee : Yes, you can speak to me.

Lee Sum Wan : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan!

Mr Saw Lee : You are talking to someone! Who is this?

Lee Sum Wan : I'm Sum Wan .And I need to talk to Annie Wan! It's urgent.

Mr. Saw Lee : I know u are someone and u want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?

Lee Sum Wan : Well just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother,Noe Wan was involved in an accident. Noe wan got injured and now Noe Wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now Avery Wan is on his way to the hospital.

Mr. Saw Lee : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital from the accident that isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!

Lee Sum Wan : You are so rude! Who are you?

Mr. Saw Lee : I'm Saw Lee.

Lee Sum Wan : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name.

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started off with a joke_
omg... such a long time din blog - hmm finally, exams over! * cool ya!
did nothing much recently. juz dyed my hair-
= wanted grey but turned out soft brown..
what the ha ha. anyway,
i think im goin to bleach my hair +
n then redye my hair to ash-ish grey~
shud b cool huh]
but not too soon.
anyhow, wanted to highlight but cant.
coz im goin to TEACH\
yu[p , TEACH!!
be a part-time teacher in a primary school)
no more part-time waiter n house-keeper which i used to b.
blek -) ciaoz.

- Prom nytez - 1/10/05

2005-10-10T19:05:00.000+08:00

- P r o m -

the coolest group.

let's see how they look lyk today~

bro...

williewhackowilson n me.

hugs~!

i lyk this pic. dunno why.

the blur me..

shoes!

blur effect!

groovy nytez..

let's groove with da music~*

Bllllleh ~~~! *sooo* cute!

susin n me inside the car.

wow.. cool glitterin tatto on sue's face.

lyk this pic too.. aint we just cute.?

bitchy me~

one cute one cool~

what r they doin? aiks?

yam sheng! =P

=( kena bully...

seein our bright future... hehe..

wei wei!! summimaseee.

guess what we saw??

guinness beer advertisement! ~ cool ya?

final fantasy!

bro again.

hmmmm...

Grad dinner - 30/09/05

2005-10-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

- G R A D U A T I O N -

* our day *

the handsome cool guys... !

the pretty sweet girls~!

chrissy walkin on the red carpet without da shoes.. aiks??

red carpet time! he he=P

edmund ~ black shirt white tie. ok la.. yeng la.. (being forced)

wearing the ties.. no more tatoos, no more bad guys! he he..

beautiful sunflowers* looks nice on a pretty girl.

smilesssss~~~~ the world will be more wonderful.

Boonming & kaito~ contrast! blue yellow, black red!

always the threesome. BEST FRENS!

cherries anyone??

may hwa (2nd fr left) n waijin (4th fr left) ~ one pale yellow, one light blue, they comforted the eyes!!

zizi~ cutted hair, black n white, elegant!

sue yee ~ simple flowery dress, yet nice.

bro ~ photocopy of me.. same tatoo, same concept, same BLUE coloured hair, notice that? hehe.

SK - II ~ smart! pink tie, black shirt! nice spicky hair!

the tree pairs~~ wedding? lol!

weee~

da gorgeous 3!

foong ling ~ what more to describe? look at her blog*

angel ~ pink n black stripes. shiny black hair (lyke the shampoo model), sweet smiles!

tiffx ~ amazing STRAIGHT hair! white + black , sexy~

Su'ny' n Ken'sin' ~ Nice flyable hair, pink + black, pretty!

christina ~ black n white! cute smile, nice necklace! wow!

errrm.. no comments!

In Summary...

2005-09-27T02:04:00.000+08:00

Whew, I can finally post an entry after few weeks of intense studying.
I feel so free and liberated now, ahhh the joy of "holidays" .
Anyways, the exams were okay except the bio papers were so damn fucking difficult.

So, allow me to break my exams into pieces (not literally):

PA (General paper) : Thank God, the paper 2 was easy n I did quite well (think only la) and i think this is one of my better papers. But i shouldn't be so smug about it because i have learnt never to be too confident. The more u'll get hurt. Oh well.. for the MCQs, I didnt study at all, mind you! at all! I just used my machine gun (not that gun) n shooted all over. Hopefully it will turn out well tho..

Chemistry : Luckily for me, I spotted some questions n I manged to scribble many rubbish on the papers. I said rubbish, mind you! ha ha.. Speaking of which, I think that Pn Lee was being very kind for giving us all the answering tips when we discussed the past years series. n of course, I hope I can score well la! n the lady luck was on my side that day, where the Inorganic chapter were less tested in the papers. he he.. coz i've totally forgotten what i've read)

Biology : Totally messed up! The paper 2 was kinda hard. . Nevertheless, I managed to blabber some craps about those questions and manage to fill up few pages+++ as i have some general knowledge about them. I have only managed to fin some chaps b4 the exam tho - Photosynthesis, DNA n stuffs, Reproduction, Immunity, Biodiversity (Cant rmb even one thg) , Taxonomy, Genetics & Heredity, Transport.. n i think that's all I read. Oh yeah, bout the paper 1, YES, i completely screw up those lame-ass questions. The MCQs were all from past years, oh my.. damn, dis is supposed to be trials right? not normal tests n exams. sigh. I didnt touch the past years series at all n so I've only got 50% correct for the paper 1. However, OPP seems to be very happy bout all the questions, perhaps she has done all the past years? Hmm. How pathetic!

Maths T : Not much comments. I can only pray hard coz I hav tried my very best to answer. Wont fail again gua... hopefully.

So, it's time to...

PARTY!!!
skip school tmr!

5 DON'TS when u're sleepin...

2005-09-14T09:24:00.000+08:00

A man can go two weeks without eating. But if he doesn't rest at all, he can only survive for one week. Sleeping provides us the time to rest our internal organs, eyes and brains. Poor sleep quality can cause internal damage to our internal organs and brains. Therefore, sleeping is very important to us. If you wish to have a long life and stay healthy, please take note of the advice below.>>>

DON'T SLEEP WITH WATCH>

Watches can emit a certain level of radioactivity.

Though small, but if you wear your watch to bed for a long time,

it might have adverse effects on your health.

DON'T SLEEP WITH BRA / UNDERWEAR>

Scientists in America have discovered those that wear bras for more than 12 hours have a higher risk of getting breast cancer. Well the same goes down there for guys..... imagine having a prostectic part. So go to bed without it.

DON'T SLEEP WITH PHONE>

Putting the phone beside your bed or anywhere near you is not encouraged. Though some of us will use phones as alarm clocks, but please put the phone as far as possible. Scientists have proved that electrical items including mobile phone and television sets emit magnetic waves when used. These waves can cause disruptions to our nervous system. Therefore if you need to put your mobile phone near you, switch it off first.

DON'T SLEEP WITH MAKE UP>

People who sleep with make up might have skin problems in the long run. Sleeping with make up will cause the skin to have difficulty in breathing and problem in perspiring. You will also need a much longer time to go into deep sleep.

DON'T SLEEP WITH OTHERS' WIFE OR HUSBAND>

You may never wake up again. lol! =P

07/10/2005 - Yanzi's new album!

2005-09-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

《美好的一天》歌詞曝光!
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我要一所大房子
有很多的落地窗戶
陽光灑在地板上
也溫暖了我的被子

我要一所大房子
有很多很多的房間
一個房間有最快的網路
一個房間有很多吉他
一個房間有我漂亮衣服
一個房間住着朋友和他的愛人
一個房間
一個房間
我也不知道該放什麽
我們晚上不睡覺
白天在床上思考
小狗在屋裏奔跑

度過美好的一天
度過美好的一天

tvcf ; http://www.e7play.com/images/25cf.wmv

Falled into pieces..

2005-09-08T16:00:00.000+08:00

Pieces

I tried to be perfect

but nothing was worth it

I don't believe it makes me real

I thought it'd be easy

but no one believes me

I meant all the things I said

if you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

just to see if it would show

that I'm trying to let you know

that I'm better off on my own

this place is so empty

my thoughts are so tempting

I don't know how it got so bad

sometimes it's so crazy

that nothing can save me

but it's the only thing that I have

if you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

just to see if it would show

that I'm trying to let you know

that I'm better off on my own

I tried to be perfect

it just wasn't worth it

nothing could ever be so wrong

it's hard to believe me

it never gets easy

I guess I knew that all along

if you believe it's in my soul

I'd say all the words that I know

just to see if it would show

that I'm trying to let you know

that I'm better off on my own

"Many of us learn as children that friendship should never be seen as just as important as family ties. However, friendship is the place in which a great majority of us have our first glimpse of redemptive love and caring community."

“If we learn to appreciate more of what we already have, we will find ourselves having more to appreciate.”

So, pls appreciate ur frens if u want them to appreciate u.

Do u appreciate them? respect them?

U'll say YES..

But..

Please think bout it....

Fuuuihhh.. #_#

2005-09-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

Well, just a short entry here.

> I LOST my wallet yesterday.

depressed, sad, sob, blank, worries, sorrows, lost.

> I FOUND back my wallet today.

happiness, joy, love, enlighted, weee, yays, speechless.

thanks to all the frens dat have waited me for lyke, soooo long. so guilty tho.

thanks to frens dat cheered me up. Sue Yee, Su'ny', Eddie, Boon, Kaito.

Not forgettin Steven Low. Thanks for all the "pain-killers" u gave me.

thanks for comfortin me.
n thanks for accompanied me here n there to find back the wallet.

Thanks yoooooooooooooOOOoooo!

=P Rules for life! rule # 8 is super IMPORTANT! hehe.

2005-09-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

Rule #1
Never accept advices from anyone who begins a sentence with:

"You know, you just gotta..."

Rule # 2
Don't take a nap at 5 in the afternoon. You will never be able to sleep at night until, of course, it is time to get up. Then you will be asleep.

Rule # 3
Don't hit your head on the wall -- it hurts.

Rule # 4
Don't hit your head on ur frens.

Rule # 5
For that matter, don't hit your head on anything -- too many head traumas can tend to lead you towards a life of mental instability

Rule # 6
Chocolate is good.

Rule # 7
Too much chocolate is bad.

Rule # 8
Say i love you to kenny.

Rule # 9
Blek =P

Black...

2005-08-22T14:01:00.000+08:00

Being of the color black, producing or reflecting comparatively little light and
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having no predominant hue.
>
Having little or no light: a black, moonless night.
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Evil; wicked.
>
Cheerless and depressing; gloomy: black thoughts.
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Being or characterized by morbid or grimly satiric humor: a black comedy.
>
Marked by anger or sullenness: black look.
<
Attended with disaster; calamitous: black day.
>
Wearing clothing of the darkest visual hue: the black me.

in black shirt . black hair. black attitude. juz black .

lol =P am i dat black?

if...

2005-08-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

我想过一件事

不是坏的事

一直对自己坚持爱情的意思

像风没有理由

轻轻吹着走

谁爱谁没有所谓的对与错

不管时间说着我们在一起有多坎坷

我不敢去证实爱你两个字

不是对自己矜持也不是讽刺

别人都在说我其实很无知

这样的感情被认定很放肆

我很不服

我还在想着那件事

如果你已经不能控制

每天想我一次

如果你因为我而诚实

如果你看我的电影

听我爱的cd

如果你能带我一起旅行

如果你决定跟随感觉

为爱勇敢一次

如果你说我们有彼此

如果你会开始相信

这般恋爱心情

如果你能给你如果的事

我只要你一件如果的事

我会奋不顾身地去爱你..

Birthday gal!

2005-08-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

din update for soo many days d. So, nothing much special happened these few days tho.
I think wont write long here.. coz i wanna sleep d. #_#.. gotta finish up my chemistry (physical, organic n inorganic) .... ALL! in this holidays.. I MUST ! MUST! MUST!!! blek=P

oh yeah, 17/08 was zizi's bday.. it was the warmest bday ever.
so many prezzies n wishes.. we even watched the vid made by her bro during our bio lesson.
so touched, warmed.
took alot of pics.. but i havent get all of them.
so.. juz some pics here for that day.

zizi with HPSLKM*

zizi with her best buddies~!

zizi n li mei ~

da bday gal with her nice shirt n skirt as presents!

zizi with the classic chesse on her face ~ pretty ya?

emperor, zizi, me, eirene, HPSLKM! *with our tongue showed!* Blek =P

the emperor n me!

sue yee.. ken "sin" n su "nny"!! lol! with zizi's prezzies.

im the tallest one!

the whole gang of us.

to zizi, all the best! wish ya get 4As in STPM n happy alwiz . smile =)

Why..

2005-08-13T22:25:00.000+08:00

I don’t really know love
I didn’t know it’d become like this
I can’t seem to control my heart when it comes to love
I wouldn’t have started if I knew it’d be like this

Now that it’s too late to turn back,
I’m having regrets
I hoped you wouldn’t be love
I hoped that you wouldn’t be my love

I told myself I didn’t love you
I hoped we were just passing acquaintances
Because all I’ll have left is pain
But even so, I want you
It’s making me sad

A wrong start.
That’s all I saw it as
I believed I could let you go any time
I don’t know what went wrong
I have to avoid your love
But I long for you

I hoped you wouldn’t be love
I hoped that you wouldn’t be my love
I told myself I didn’t love you
I hoped we were just passing acquaintances
Because all I’ll have left is pain
But even so, I want you
It’s making me sad

Now I’m nothing without you
I can’t do anything about it
Knowing that I must erase you...
Makes my life harder.. ..

complex ion...

2005-08-11T00:25:00.000+08:00

Just edited some pics... got some kinda feelin dat i'll fall into sick soon.. lol! but still, im not gonna rest.. dun realli feel tired tho.. i dunno... im tired but.. just dun feel lyke wanna sleep..

The formation of new complex ion called BROTHERHOOD..

study chemistry until sot jor??? lol!!

Where are They??

2005-08-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

Yay!! Holidays for tmr n fri due to the haze problems.. !!

=( sob .. have to be replaced by the other days tho.. probably saturday... =(
WHERE ARE THE TWIN TOWERS N KL TOWER??

Hey hey, guys! there shud be twin towers n KL tower in the pic up there! omg.. seemed lyke the haze had already eaten them.. lol! hmm.. nxt time i'll post the same view from my window again for comparison purposes! lol!!

CHOKED!!

2005-08-09T16:31:00.000+08:00

Well well, this entry is full of crappy stuffs.. - rojak.

Today boon said im a "SNAG" (sensitive New-age guy) ..
But he didnt tell me why..

Today was extremely hazy..
N arthur was cute with his mask.
CHOKED!!!

Love is lyke a dump of rubbish.. u cant see it in dark, shadow shows it. uuh.. what's dis?

Quotes ran into my head :

"Only when you fall you will learn the miracle of flying."

"Happiness is a sunbeam not shadow can intercept."

"It's better to light a candle than to curse the darkness."

chatted with sis.. notice the boy up there>? dat was for me!!

thankss~!! sweet!

this flower was for me too~!! hehe.. so happy!!

Somethg funny!~ the fantastic four??

2005-08-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

Just online after holding my physical chem book for half the day. There were all chemistry stuffs inside my brain now. lol. oh yea. the main purpose i opened pc wasnt just wanna online. Later need to finish up the financial report for my club n gotta do lotsa stuffs. Hmm.

=( oh yeah.. i saw peiyi's frensta photo album just now n i laughed until my stomach ached. lol! FUNNY!

*Directly adapted from Pei Yi's photo album caption. Copyrighted by Pei Yi*

"From Left Bottom To The Top!!!

~Member Number (1) Kenny (The Apprentice Of The Fantastic Man namely The Spectacular Or Spectacles Man# U guys saw or not those V shaped fingers, that is the poise when he feel like adjusting his sliding spectacles or to poke the enemy eyes (special attacks effective for the non spectacles enemy)#~ ,

~Member Number (2) Shobana (The Grand Daughter Of Invincible Women,The Black Women..She can almost Invincible In the Dark Night except for her sparkling colgate Teeth)LOL~,

~Member Number (3) Kok Keong (The Twin brother Of The Human Torch called The Human Battery) since torch cant work out without battery~ and~

~Member Number (4) Boon Ming (The Incarnation of The Thing called The Huge Thing,Beware Body Slam)(top) LOL LOL~"

lol lol lol!!! Thanks Pei Yi!! I was totally entertained by ur caption. =P

Win-win..

2005-08-04T18:49:00.000+08:00

aint so intelligent, aint so smart,
aint so mathematical, aint so geometrical,
aint so logical, aint so analytical,
aint so arithmetical, aint so progressive...

But i'll do it. for my own's sake.

im maths-insulator,
but i'll conduct the electricity in it soon.
im not a bio-memoriser,
but i'll juz memorise them neway.
im not a good PA graph-plotter,
but it'll be my only chance to DRAW, to colour* lol!
i dun lyke physical, organic, inorganic n watsoeva,
:: but i just lyke CHEMISTRY!~ ::

hehe.. finished crappin. brand new start.
just saw my frensta msgs from my godsis-Eve.
it were total of 2 msgs n there were all encouragement n advises.
thanks alot sis, ur comments were appreciated.
much indeed.
kisses for ya. muakss~

n thanks boon for talkin to me.
altho it was a short one n i onli managed to ask one Q,
but it was more than enuff.
A stupid yet abstract Q dat i created myself.
lol. asked kai yit today n he seemed to be in total blur~
*winks* only boon understood me. he he..
he's such a genius.
as what he used to be.

Light??? my element? cool!

2005-08-03T16:47:00.000+08:00

Your element is Light. Your heart is pure and
shining with love. You believe in the goodness
of those around you and give almost everyone a
smile. You are not the kind to hide your
happiness and tend to smile all day long, both
in and out. But when sadness hits you, you
become very devastated and may be upset for
quite some time.

What you need in your life is
friends, friends who will love you
unconditionally, like you love them. But you
have a naive nature and don't always notice
when someone is trying to hurt you. Some would
say you are oblivious to mean people, which
makes you an easy target. However, your true
friends will probably be there for you and save
you. In school you are either the popular one
or the little weird one. It all depends if
"the higher people" find your caring
side irritating or not. Nevertheless, you have
a bubbly personality and are social. Big partys
may not be your thing since you want bonding
time with your friends, so slumber-partys fit
you more. You like the happy things in life and
like everyone else to be as happy as you are.

What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answeres!]

eeeeeeeeee..

2005-08-03T16:26:00.000+08:00

stand up, stand up, stand up!
wake up, wake up, wake up!

Kenyz *Slaps* himself!!

Pliakkkk~

Ouchh~!*

where r u?

2005-08-02T18:47:00.000+08:00

where r u?? i miss u!

i miss u until i've gone crazy~!

come back to me pls!

Emptiness..

2005-08-02T06:26:00.000+08:00

it's 6:26am rite now n im NOT going to school!
I hate school! Hate to study!
wanna blurp everythg out in my alternate blog but shit!
i cant login.. it's already been few days ..
hmm.. i couldnt show the weak side of me in here!
i just couldnt~!
i dunwan be to a loser among my frens..
im waitin for my alternate site to recover..
and perhaps,maybe what i written inside it hurted it too.
it does have feelings..
it doesnt want the see the hybrided kenny..
it doesnt allow me to blog..
it was now in the process of healing,
so do i...

it's my best "dude"..

this is my POWER~!

2005-07-30T08:52:00.000+08:00

what power is compatible with you?

okays, Just saw winson's blog n this quiz was something interesting..

I rarely try any quizes coz i found it quite annoyin n they were not satisfyin.

but, this quiz's realli an eye-opener.

the result somehow shocked me.

it was *sOooo* true !

*sooo* accurate !

superb!

Okays, well the result satisfied me.

my power is Clairvoyance.

Explanation: Your power is that you can look into the future and see what is coming. How far and long you can look is all depending on your skill level. This can, as all powers, be used in both evil and good. Even if it may seem like a boring ability it is a huge responsibility for the carrier, becase they are constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds (e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to not be brought down with it. Therefor you fit with this power quite well. You take responsibility and do what is the right thing to do. This does not make you a saint, since you're only human after all. But it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal to camrades and/or team mates. In school you were probably a good student. If you were social varies from person to person, but most clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own company or that of close friends and family. That is because you are wise and knows how to treasure the reliable in your life, since you know popularity can be a false element. You are also not that big on taking risks and prefer what is already explored. That is because you don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and then you won't be in control.

Negative aspects: Since you're always doing the right thing and being trustworthy all the time you can become frustrated. Also, all that you carry on your shoulders may stress you out. You need to relax to be in good mental shape.

:: contradiction ::

2005-07-28T00:49:00.000+08:00

Today's chem test results realli pissed me off to da max.
I've put quite alot of efforts but this is what i got?
I could't believe but just hate myself!
Hate myself .. why can i hold on until this point?
I know i cant study since last time n i hate to study n touch my revision books!
I know im not a really GOOD student as everyone tot!
IM NOT! ~~
IM NOT A GOOD GUY EITHER..
IM NOT A GOOD SON ..
there's an evil side of my heart.
i wished i can just give up everything.
instead of suffering..
i wished i can be a bad student some sorta lyke gangsta..
rude to teachers n refuse to do anythg dat i dun lyke.
homeworks.. exams.. tests.. etc.
lyke today, there was a PA test.
I realli wished dat i just pass up the Qs without As.
I realli DO think lyke dat ..
i wished i could just be lyke my so-called brothas...
living happily, easily huh?
without workin hard.. more to spoon fed.
failed all my subjects lyke what they used to do.
I REALLI WISHED.
I dun wanna give a damn to anythg dat happened on me..
realli..

I realli hate myself!
why am i sooo good?
why am i sooo care bout my studies?
even i dun lyke it n hate it so much?
why i dont hav the oppurtunity to study the courses i lyke?
im into graphic designing, interior designing, illustration, multimedia..
but why i ended up suffering in science stream?
in form 6>>??
why????
i dun feel lyke study now. eventhough tmr got test.
i realli dont bother. anymore.
eventhough my homeworks.. mpm experiments..
i dont give a damn .
could this be the beginning of the end?
2 more months to STPM.
can i stand up instead of keep falling down.?
i really dunno.
i dunwanna regret anymore.
but i just cant do it.
I realli need help.
guys...
please help!

...

2005-07-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

What i really wan?
Recently, in a blur case
everytime started to figuring out
who am i actually ?~
what do i want ?~
who needs me in this world ?~

This question comes with no answers...
I started to lose confidence towards myself ..

Today's "me" is not the "me" in the past
from optimistic and joyful turns to sorrow and pain
with thousand of questions in my mind
thanks to the realistic world that changed me
and thanks to all the experiences in my life

Used to have lots of friends around me,
when looks back at the testimonials wrote by them...
and the photo album..
lots of joy and fun...
comes with plenty of sweet memories...
really thanks to u guys a lot...
having u all as my fren is my honour and proud,
but those, is just a memory in the depth of my mind now...
the sweet memory is starting to fade away...

Mayb i should let it off,
that something i cant hold any longer,
if keep it on to hold it, i am onli suffering myself.
Started to feel that my relationship
with all my friends around me is worsen...

not because of them...
is because...
mayb i am the 1 who should be blamed...
in front of everyone i'm having a big smile,
but wat is behind the big smile ?
a smile tat makes all my fren happy?
while myself is suffering in the depth of my heart?
no body knows tat. so do i ~
sigh.
im a faker. im fake. i felt dat im realli fake.. ~

A special chattin session...

2005-07-25T19:47:00.000+08:00

Smiiileeee~~ sweet!

no ma no ma yeeh!!~

sweet trio!

poserrr*

Green tea ad! featurin the ugly edmund.

deary cute sis n ed!

Box u ~! hehehe~~!

blur pretty girl*

ahhh haa! =P

I just did.

2005-07-22T18:56:00.000+08:00

BOY: I need someone to talk to ..
GiRL: I`m alwayz here for you.
BOY: I know.
GiRL: Whatz wrong?
BOY: I like her *s0o* much..
GiRL: Talk to her.
BOY: I don`t know.. she`ll never like me.
GiRL: Don`t say that. You`re amazing.
BOY: I just wanna tell her how I feel ..
GiRL: Then tell her.
BOY: She won`t like me.
GiRL: How do you know that?
BOY: I can just tell.
GiRL: Well, just tell her.
BOY: What should I say?
GiRL: Tell her how much you like her.
BOY: I tell her that daily.
GiRL: What youu mean?
BOY: I'm alwayz with her. I love her.
GiRL: I know how you feel. I have the
same
problem. But he`ll never like me.
BOY: Wait. Who do you like?
GiRL: Ooh, some boy..
BOY: Ooh, she won`t like me either.
GiRL: She does.
BOY: How do you know.. ?
GiRL: Because who wouldn`t like you?
BOY: You..
GiRL: You`re wrong. I love you.
BOY: I love you too.
GiRL: .. so are you going to talk to her?
BOY: I just did.

UNblock his heart?

2005-06-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

*This guy actually doesnt has to [[UNblock his heart]] d..

he has grown stronger,

more optimistic,

more matured..

through the creation of this blog..

he saw many thgs happened around him..

N he realli enjoyed reading blogs of his frens..

He learned alot from them..

He learned to see life from diff angles n perspective..

The undertakin of a new action brings him new strength..

To be a better him... ...*

Today i saw a blog of my fren, Jack. N suddenly inspired me to write a comment for his post.. n here was it. hope y'all can get inspired from wat i wrote here too.. all da best in ur life... i will seldom post for this blog d..

It happens everyday, though u may never notice. all around u, Miracles are takin place. Flowers bloom. Trees bud. Little birds take flight. Children are born.

Here's the greatest miracle of all. your life. *U* r alive, celebratin the gift of life..

dont be afraid to listen to the songs dat will lead u to da past... instead, face them with bravery.. release the past.. though it might be hurt or meaningful for ya.. but.. they're already past rite? hehe.. Everyone has his / her own past.. the past could be wonderful momments n vice versa. but.. as wat i mentioned in my blog.. the use of knowledge of the past is to equip us for the present.. Forgive. Then u can finally get past ur past..

Appreciate ur loved ones n love ones.. they're actually makin ur life more b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l.. =P

Be an apprentice #_# ?

2005-06-04T12:32:00.000+08:00

It has been few days i didnt blog ya? ha ha.. why? bcoz im LAZY n NO MOOD for dis.. was a lil emotional in these few days.. seen lotsa thgs, experienced lotsa ups n downs. hehe.. for me, life's i m p e r f e c t but life's indeed fun.. dissapointment's dissapointing but it could be enlightening.. the only use of a knowledge of the p a s t is to equip us for the p r e s e n t.. n yet, we must appreciate the present.. n the future..

2nd of June

after movie-ing with boon, kai, susin, zizi n bro, EPISODE III --> Revenge of the Sith. We went for bowling at Federal bowl. n u know ya... it was kinda surprised dat i scored the highest marks among them..lol.. so happy yet satisfied.. hehe. Soon after dat I went home.

Then couples of hours later, i went to boonbox's blog n i saw his newly updated blog.. Wow.. it was realli amazin man! Super-cool! Be an teenage apprentice>? He is definitely an example.. But i wondered dat can i ever be an apprentice? I alwiz wonderin but din take action for my dreams, my hopes.. Hmm.. Thinkin a plan to gain myself up.

-I am what I stand for-

> Korkor didi Forever <

2005-05-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah, during the visit to midvalley megamall, I actually got a surprise gift from my lovely Henry didi. He bought me a special hp string.. it was simple but it was real meaningful to me.. The strings got a pair, one for him (DIDI) n one for me (KORKOR).. how sweet was dat?

Thanks didi!
Love u loads*
M u a x h !
Korkor didi forever!

An Evening with Battery Dance company*

2005-05-28T00:33:00.000+08:00

Today was a great day for me.. went to Mid-Valley this morn with godbro n friend. Reached there bout 11++ am.. had some window-shoppin with them and of coz.. was having non-stop chit-chat throughout the whole day. Then we hit the cinema for one-missed call 2.. my godbro didnt managed to watch it coz of my silly mistake* soweeee didi! neway, bout the show, dunno wat the story all about..especially the ending part.. kinda confusing.. and it was not scary at all!! lol! =P at least for me..

During the show, my godbro sms-ed me saying dat there's an empty place for me for a dance performance [An Evening with batterydancecompany] which took place at Ikeda Peace Auditorium at Soka Gakkai Malaysia (SGM) Culture Centre, Cheras.. at 8pm..with his family. because of this, right after the show I rushed back home to prepare myself as i cant go straightly to there bcoz no jeans are allowed there. sob! have to go bak change to formal wear. keke=D

Here's some details bout Battery Dance Company --->
Founded in 1976 by Jonathan Hollander. Performs on the world's stages, teaches, presents, and advocates for the field of dance. has represented the U.S. overseas and has developed cultural exchange programs in the realm of dance and the performing arts.

There were actually 4 performances performed by total of 6 foreign dancers namely Notebooks [14 mins], Where There's Smoke [22 mins], Used Car Salesman [12 mins] and Secrets of the Paving Stones [21 mins].. i basically like all the four parts especially da last one bcoz it was kinda like a strip dance show.. lol! =D
but the show was a lil boring as it was all in contemporary dance categories.. no hip-hop, no modern.. their movement were very soft n kinda ballad-like. Anyway i enjoyed the show very muxh coz the dancers were truly amazing*!
Envy my godbro muxh coz he is a dancer too.. seen his performance clips b4 n it was realli super nice.. Anyone watched Honey? know the song I believe by Yolanda Adams in the movie? hip-hop + modern.. try to imagine a group of ppl performin dis song.. realli Super-b!

It's all about 缘份...

2005-05-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

Skipped School today.. hehe.. havin headache when i woke up from bed.. was too lazy to prepare myself to school.. Nth realli special bout teacher's day.. stayed at home lepak.. bout 12++pm, i was waiting for my godbro to come over my house after finished his party in school. It's been quite a long time we didnt meet d. was soo happy to see him though juz had a lil plain chat with him stuffs happened in school.. family n friends.. and we were kinda serious as we talked bout brotherhood.. We talked alot bout this topic and what he said to me were somethg dat kinda touched my heart... had a fruitful conversation with him this afternoon.

3++pm, was preparing myself to meet Boon Ming at Sg. Wang... as i reached there it was bout 4pm d.. kinda late d.. n guess wat? we met Edmund n Irene with their gang unexpectedly.. Whoopss.. after dat, we ended up in time square meetin Angel n her dad at Boarders.. was soo happy to see them!

Then it was supposed spending time with Boon Ming watchin [House of wax] but the time is not suitable so we went for some relaxations n suprisingly we met Venni, Shob n Padma.. Wow* wat a day? had a lil chat with them then we went home...

Nothing realli special but today was just weird coz din go to school oso can meet so many friends* * realli 有缘...

正所谓：“有缘千里来相聚，无缘对面不相识”。Dunno correct anot... haha =D

End of orientation* Start of hols*

2005-05-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

Nothing much bout today.. woke up kinda late (6.30am) then went to school as normal. Im sooo glad there's no maths lessons first 2 periods coz i was kinda lazy d especially after the tiring-mid-year exams. Aha* did some cards for tmr teacher's day.. [gonna ponteng skool maybe, depends on my mood tmr morn, keke=P] Third period onwards went for the lower 6 orientation. Today was the last day of the 3-days programme. Actually the lower sixes were kinda lucky bcoz this year's orientation was so dedicatedly well-planned by all the creative yet endured seniors like us* keke=P

All of them were blessed with love n all sorta activities like *telematches*, *amazing race*, *talent time*, movie presentations n so on. It was obviously much more betta than last year ones. Weee, It was realli fun hanging out with all the cute juniors! hope they will hav a whole new experience. Welcome to sixth form~*

Hols comin soon, not the time for us to play, rest, eat... it's the time for us to study n catch up everyting* Gambateh U6S2! Play hard n work hard*

Officially back ! *

2005-05-24T17:47:00.000+08:00

Weee! im back! at last, finished my extremely scary mid-term exams. Well, basically no matter how hard i tried, i still cant managed to finish all the syllabus! sob sob=P First time felt like this.Man! made me realised form 6 isn't a FUN thing!

Anyway, this few weeks alot of things happened but i couldn't rmb well coz i suffered from STM! ha ha... wanna blog them down but i promised someone not to online much til the exams over! that's y loh* keke. Sorry ya this blog has been freezed for some time!

Oh yEah* there is a day i couldnt forget. 21/05/2005 - My 19th bday..

alrite, before i comment on this, here are diff versions of dat day..

[BonBox's version] ---->
Yesterday kenny's invitation / hence i went for it ... nothing very 'special' ... another person's b-day and had a party at Redbox (for those live in jungle or outside of Malaysia territory ... redbox is karaoke)
**here's the report ... ... present presented by everyone ... everyone compete for the most creative award by figuring out what's the most creative present ... got CD ... (ConDom) got 7 HABITs for HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENAGER (a book to teach someone that blur blur) .... MP3 player ....... and alot ..... and guess what ? the leading actor was like having enjoy the OSCAR night and cried (nope ... i heard of somewhere ... i din see it my ownself ... coz i would surely snap it) and then after being annouced that he's the BEST OSCAR ... dunno .... ... hug here hug there ... dunno want to "SOAK WATER" or something ...... but the scenery maybe too parental guided for me to mention it here ... juz cannot be descriped by words ...

[Myselfed's version] ---->
After a long week of exams and endless reading and revising, its time to chill out and relax and unwind.....So we decided to celebrate Kenny's birthday at Red Box while having fun....Of we went on a Saturday afternoon, separated in three rooms, we sang till I lungs expanded to the point I think is about to explode but things weren't like before. We don't have the same kind of fun as we had on our last visit. Its just not the same....But despite that minor set back, my greatest joy was to see Kenny receiving his present, an mp3 player, where he broke down and cried at the sight of it. It was so touching as he hugged me in tears....These are priceless moments....

Hahaha... kinda funny huh? Hmm.. Actually, seriously, really (learn from kaiyit)... my 9teen th bday was the bestEST bday eva in my life! I never received sooo many presents b4 on my last bdaysSsss til date! Frankly speaking, b4 this, my bday was not realli a SOO-SPECIAL-BORNED-DAY for me. Everyting juz seems normal on this day. 21/05 - a date few ppl will rmb... even my own fam members. Especially my so-called brothers!! Not even a "Happy Birthday" wish from them. No presents. SooooOOoooo sad! =( Ha ha.. no exceptions in this year's bday too.. how sad was dat? =( Actually im juz a child who grows up lonely.. individually.. without any nice n sweet childhood memories.. My bros nvr play with me ( prolly they are much older than me)... nvr bother bout me.. nvr treat me as their lil didi who realli needs love n learn from them. We are juz like strangers living in a same hse. Haha... until now it's still da same. Din talk to my bros for .. lyke... few days??? Lol. Dun even know what they're doin or up to. What a useless bro here huh? But it's realli not my fault! Juz dat the distance between us is getting farer n farer..so damn sad this is what actually happening now. sigh*

Ya know dat's y im enjoying my life now with my special friends around me. They are juz soooo precious for me. I lyke to hang out with my friends... ex-schoolmates... godbros n godsises..n juz so damn appreciate the time spent with them. At here, I realli wanna thanks to my 2 bestest frens --- Boon Ming n Kai Yit coz i spent my time mostly with them! soo comfortable being with them. Boon Ming gives me the feelin of a long-lost bro, whenever i got probs or anything bothers me i'll seek for his comments n opinions. I believe he can give me luck on everyting i do. Anyway, it realli DID!! lotsa times... Bout Kai Yit, his attitude somehow making me wanna joke with him.. play with him.. haha.. so funny coz i can express all from my heart without considering my jokes might hurt him. This is real frens rite? no matter bad or good i'll juz straightly tell him. Never the less, sometimes they've hurted u soo muxh.. sorry n hope ya don take them too seriously. Boon n kai gave me a book on this bday besides sharing the MP3 player. The 7 HABITS of Highly Effective TEENS. Lol. A true gift for a teenager who needs to unblock his heart. Thankssssss..

Other than that, I received a MP3 player from a great bunch of lower six mates! My SpEcIAl frEnZ~* Edmund, Angel siz n Kirk, Christina, Tiffany, Boon, Kai, Shobana, Venni, Padma, Irene, Mee Fong, Ling Li, Amy, Kok Keong, Pei Yi, Wilson, Ee Lin, H'ng Ee, and Xi-Mun. Thank u sooooo muxh!!! im too touched. Dunno the tears just fell like dat.. Thx for the hugs ed n gel.. i just lyke this present soo muxh.. lyke it to da max!

Besides, I gota a black tee from Chui Ling n Pei Pei... Some crappy food from Mun Wai... a firehose undies from my ex-schoolmates.. "CD" from Khai Cheong... and a surprisingly big gift from Steven_kemmaw didi (REALI BIG GIFT!)... A hand-made-3D bday card n cake from my Henry didi. A hand-made special profile bday card n a body glove pencil case from my lovely Everlyn sis! N A supposed-to-be-surprising bday cake from Chee Kuen, Wai Jin, Su Sin, Poi Chyi, Fong Ling, Sue Yee, Sze Jun n May Hwa. Why i said so? bcoz the stupid waiter asked me personally whether the cake is goin to ready anot? Lol=P no more surprise! But Sue Yee I know u've work hard to hide the cake d! it's ok! im still very happy! ~

Btw, There are some special n unique presents from SOMEONE special for me. For certain circumstanses, i think i shall not mention here.. Lol=P Thx baby!! Love ya muxh! MuakssZ!

Erm... Whoops.. actually wanna blog bout wat happened today oso.. but dunwan la.. too long d.. till here la..

= *off* =

* H o p e s & D r e a m s *

2005-05-13T17:57:00.000+08:00

My hopes ...
My Dreams ...

Fairytales...

2005-04-23T07:52:00.000+08:00

I have forgotten how long was it,
Since I last heard you,
Telling me your favorite story,
I have been thinking for a very long time,
Im beginning to feel paranoid,
Did I make any mistakes again?

You came and tell me with the tears in your eyes,
That fairytales are all lies,
Its impossible for me to be your prince charming,
Maybe you will not understand,
After the moment when you said you loved me,
The stars in my sky, are beginning to shine and shimmer.

Im willing to be, the angel you love, In the fairytales,
Open my arms wide, And let it become wings, to protect you,
You have to believe, Believe that we will be like the fairytale,
With happiness and joy as the ending.

Everything is our beautiful ending...

What is K|E|N|N|Y ?

2005-04-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

Keep
Enjoying
Nature
N
Yourself !

Thx to Edmund.. Love ya.. =D

The Legend

2005-04-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

Long Ago, there was a bird who sang but just once in her life.
From the moment she left the nest...
She searched the longest leaf for a thorn tree...
Never resting until she found one...
Then she began to sing...
more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the earth...
But carry away in the rapturous honor song...
She impaled herself on the longest, sharpest thorn.
As she was dying, she rose above her own agony to out-sing even the lark and the nightingale...
The thorn bird traded her life for that one song and..
The whole world was captured to listen!
And God, in His heaven smiles~

As her very best was brought out only of the cost of great pain..
Driven by the thorn with no fear for her death to come..
But when we push the thorn into our breast,
We know...
We understand...
And still .. we choose the pain of the thorn... ...

传说中，有一种鸟一生只鸣唱一次，
当它离开巢穴的那一天起，
就永不停歇地寻找著世上最长的荆棘。
当它找到时，就会将自己的胸膛朝著最长最尖的刺撞去，
在最深最刻苦的痛中，引亢高歌，
而这样的歌声，超越了它自身的痛楚，
声音无与伦比，感人肺腑，
就连世人以为声音甜美的云雀或夜莺都不能与之相比，
刺鸟从不惧死亡的降临，
以它的生命作为换取世上最美丽歌声的代价，
而当我们迎向最深刻的痛，
我们知道我们将无所畏惧，
因为，唯有经历著最深沉的痛楚，才能换取最美好的事物！

Secrets of Life & Love ...

2005-04-10T11:22:00.000+08:00

This blog is specially for all my friends that are having problems in life and love. Actually u need not to care bout what I wrote here. Hehe. Maybe these are just merely some useless craps for you. Because these are just from my perspective for life & love..

Hmm.. talk bout life.. I think that when one grows older, the more problems will be encountered. For example, my journey from standard one til form 5.. my path was just so so smooth. Too smooth to hav probs. I thought my life will just be that simple..simple simple life! But when I step into form 6.. only realised what is so-called 'LIFE'.

Life is frankly n seriously ..very cruel. Don't believe? u can just ask yourself. U think your life is perfect? huh>? Life's imperfect, my dear frens. Life is full of challenges & obstacles for us to overcome. My sixth form's journey, almost one year d. But, in this one-year time.. so many unwanted things happened. But what to do? u kenot just block all the probs by your hands n say "No no.. i dont want all these!" Right?

But actually if we think carefully, all the problems in our life were created by ourselves -- Human. Species namely homosapiens.

"The best portions of a good man's life --- his little, nameless, unremembered acts of kindness and love." - William Wordsworth

Actually we ourselves can make life easier depends on what situation we encountered. When we face an arguement, consideration n generousity will do ; When we encountered betrayer, forgiveness will do. and so so many more. You may think this is ridiculous rite? You may think: It's easy to say, but it's not easy to do it. Yea, that's right! even myself also did the same mistakes all over again in my life. Only in the end, regreted what I've done. But the one who hurts is i myself. Then I will think bout 2 words. "What if .... .... ..." "What if ... ... " Haih.. why human's like dat? after all the thgs happened only know how to think .. and human will repeat the same mistake again nxt time. Why? Human are born to be contradicter issit? or what?

Now im giving opinions for u guys. But i kenot even sure that whether i will think that wisely when somethg happened to me. That's just ME -- Kenny Wong Siew Foo. A contradicter. Ok, back to the topic... Take "what if" out of your vocabulary. Life is linear, not circular. We cant go back, so we might as well just go on with our life. Actually we can be positive, even about the negative circumstances in our life. The main pt is just.. depends on ourselves.. whether we want to be positive anot? It's our own choice. But, for me.. even I intended to forget bout the past.. but i understand it's hard. Im sayin all these good advices but myself cant accept them. What a contradiction? Lol=P okok.. continue. Look thru the windshield, not the rearview mirror.

Ok, dat's bout the past. Erm, one more thing, don't be afraid to cry. You may think, huh? a guy who cry is useless. but for me, it's not! U know what, we [guys] are much betta at emotions now. In days of old, when a grown man cried he was considered weak. Now, lettin our emotions show is often considered a sign of strength. A sign of passion. Guys with tears are guys with passions. Some may think crying is useless.. it can't help in anythg. But, Each emotion plays a part in our overall mental health. I don't deny that Im emotional. I can cry easily. I will cry when i think of my past.. when im sad.. when i lost a fren or loved one.. when im touched.. when im too happy [u may think this is weird, last time i used to think like dat, but not until it realli happened on me]..

* Dont be afraid to show ur emotions. Dont be afraid to laugh. Laughter is a way of relievin tension; Dont be afraid to cry. Tears are way of drainin off excess hurt; Dont be afraid to get angry. Anger is given to preserve safety. *

There are so many types of ppl i faced recently. But i just hope they know life isn't a one-man show. It's a drama played out with other actors. The way u interact with others will mean the difference in ur success or failure. Actually, we shud learn some "acting skills". Learn how to play off other ppl's lines. If they are angry, we must calm. If they are in trauma, we must be tender. Remember, dont make it worser.. i've done it plenty of times. it's hurting. It's betta to be frens than enemy rite? dat's y i seldom angry in my whole life. Even my frens betrayed me, in the end, is myself who apologised n said.. "we're stil best frens.." it's no good having enemies in ur life. Life realli is a stage. Perform well before the curtain falls.

UrGhh, i think it's too long rite? there are still many thgs i wanted to mention here bout life but i think i'll stop here. ish.. havent touch bout love part though.. nvm.. to be continued.

Wat the ...

2005-04-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

Today was not realli a good day for me.

Series of unfortunate events.

im speechless.

Tmr got chem test.

Uhh?

Im onlinin!

Losin my voice...

2005-04-04T19:23:00.000+08:00

Man!

Im losin my voice...

super damn headache now!

+ flu.. + sorethrout.. + a lil fever..

Tmr got bio presentation.. how am i supposed to present?

Damn!! im so blur in school today. duhhh...

Wasted loadsa time. later after dinner will rest again...

got lotsa delayed hws..

It's my life*

selamber aje lah.

0102030405?

2005-04-03T01:02:00.000+08:00

Now 1.02 am is the world's most memorable moment... ...coz the time and the date is 01:02 03/04/05...0102030405...will occur only 100years once, once in life..

we r so lucky! could ya imagine? 100 years? haha=D but i know many ppl r sleepin rite now ler.. like pig! actually i oso dunno wat shud i do in this meaningful time... Hmm.. Wishes?

>Here they are<

My family members happy alwiz!
My Special didi, Henry, wish all da best luck be with him! hope he can plays piano for me everyday! forget bout the past!
My Special mui mui, Everlyn the notti princess, wish ya pretty alwiz! be matured abit! dai gor lui liao! kenot notti notti liao=P ok? n i will *think* k? =D
My special fren (u know who u r), hope we will alwiz be best best frens like now. Hope we wil stil be like now in the future... yong yuan mei fan nao! k?
My classmates, Form 6 is sucks but it's the sweetest moments for me! hope we'll tresure our time of being together in these few months time!

So, dat's all fer now. hope everyone will be happy.

Busyness

2005-03-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm. GoodFriday. It was a good day for me. Recently too busy with my routine n studies. At last, a day for me to rest, stop n smell the coffee.

Do u ever feel like breakin down? Do u ever wanna runaway? Do u you ever get tired? Take a rest, take a kit-kat. Take the cue from ur subconscious n if possible, quit somethg. Yes, quit something. This doesn't make us a quitter. It puts us in control of our life. Rather than being out of control.

Love urself. Take a bow to life.

Introspection

2005-03-24T23:57:00.001+08:00

Today was cool. Pay attention on dis.

There's a very important person in ur life, someone u shud get to know. This person has great influence over u --- more than ur frens, family or ur associates. Who is it? It's *YOU*.

Spend some time alone for introspection.

Take a few minutes at the end of the dayto reflect on...

wat u think...

how u feel...

n who u r...

THINK!

Meaningless..

2005-03-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

Haha.. yestday i didnt blog. Today oso don't plan to blog actually. Coz tmr got Chemistry test! Fuiyoh~~ Im having serious headache now. Juz ate panadol. How am I supposed to study? Wewawawa. I dunno arh. Form 6 sucks! Im tryin hard now. Listenin some songs to comfort myself. All these are meaningless rite? Basically, this is a meaningless blog. Muahaha.

Oh yea. juz some highlights here. Today I saw a great debate. But, GrRhHh~~ my school lost! I dont even know y though! It was kinda unfair! Neway, i still think dat our school's debate team is the winner! They r realli cool! (Boon, Hari, Edmund). Hmm.. i think dat's all for now lah. Gotta go n study Chem d. CiaoZ!

>*KenyZ signin Off*<

>Releasin the past<

2005-03-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

It stil hurts, doesn't it? am I askin myself? Haha. I can stil hear the words someone said to me b4. The speech still rings in my ears. Everyone has been hurt by someone.

Im nursing the grudge... makes it hurt worse. Remembering an old wound is like rubbing salt into it. I know it stings all the more. But i cant help rememberin the old wound i had b4. Should I forgive myself in order to get rid of the past? or juz loving ppl regardless of wat they've done to me? That's the greatest love of all. A fren told me.

It sounds impossible, doesn't it? Letting go of the feelings from a past hurt is not easy. It will be like surrendering my right to hurt someone else in the way that they hurt me. No! it isn't easy. But it is the only path to freedom. Should I? Can I?

I? U? We? They? He? She? It?

2005-03-20T12:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i slept late coz of some probs. My fren's.. myself's.. n i was physically not feelin well. I was so headache, stomachache, n energyless. Even now im feelin the same. I dunno y. Everyting seems getting complicated. From juz merely a simple thg, it became huge prob. N when every probs mixed together. They began to mess with my head. Im OUT of this reality world! Damn! This is sucks!

Shit! fucked off! Wat's wrong with me? Wat's wrong with my frens? What's wrong with everyone? Wat's wrong with my dad? [He's rite here scoldin me fer NOTHING!] Everyone is having problems! Duhhh. All these thgs happened but i cant realli help! Coz I myself facing probs dat i cant even solve them. Sigh. Im regret for wat i did. Mentally Im clear for wat i am now. But physically n emotionally I still cant let go of sumthg. Im pissed off by my mind. I dunno y i kept thinkin bout the past. Maybe the memories are too valuable for me? Maybe they juz cant be stored in my mind peacefully. Sometimes im haunted by them. Im so scared. Damn. I tot I've been awaken didnt i?

I just dun understand MYSELF. I dun understand U. I dun understand US. I dun understand THEM! I dun understand HIM. I dun understand HER. I dun understand IT.

A lesson learned. A decision made.

2005-03-19T21:18:00.000+08:00

A lesson learned from my fren. She told me a meaningful love story with a sad ending. So, unwillingly... A decision was made by me too. I dunno wat I did was rite or wrong. But i did it.
N the love story goes like this...[copy-n-paste-msn-version]

"a gal n a boy...they luv each other..they have their happy moments together just 1 day..ya noe y? this guy... he cant jamin that he can give this gal happiness...n he's this gal's 1st luv..n this guy although luv this gal.. but he told this gal to break off..n said that if they r really meant to be together, they will be together... to say break off this guy is so hurt.. n so sad...but becoz of he tot tat's the best way for both of them..he broke off wit this gal..but he pretended tat he dun luv this gal anymore,,, n hurt this gal a lot..by hugging another gal in front of her.. by saying words to hurt her.. by treating other gals well but treated her badly..n pretend tat nothing had ever happened be4...this gal.. luv him so much.. accept it.. pretend nothing happen in front of everybody but actually at nites she cry.. dunno how many times d.... she noe this guy luv her.. so she had been waiting for him to say he luv her again..but she had waited n waited.. waited n waited... this guy nvr ever show this gal any concern anymore... nvr ever tell her how he feels anymore... she waited n waited... hope tat one day they'll be in luv again.. at this moment,she dun really can tell tat this guy still luv her anot..he's not sure whether he luv this gal anot.. coz all this feelings is too strange for him.. nvr had be4...but this guy continue to be happy with the other gals...wait.. be4 the ending ho.. i think i left sum points...ok.. when this guy wanna break off with this gal.. he promised to remain as friends until the time is right for them..but he din even treat her as a fren.. not even a concern when she's injured.. not even a concern when she's sick...n at last this gal wanna tok over with him..she complaint how he treated her badly..but ya noe wat this guy said? coz u n me.. n me n other gals r not same... can hug with them.. i can touch their hands coz i got no feelings for them.. n those r purely frenship..but me n u.. not same..when i got near u.. the feelings is not same..it's affection.. it's luv.. i'm afraid when i got near u.. i can't control myself.. hope u can understand.. we've kept our promises to remain as frens...then although this gal is touched.. she say ok.. but deep inside her heart.. she actually not really can accept.. coz.. she always think.. y 2 person in luv with each other but cannot be together? y wanna make it sooo complicated? ya dun wan to noe the ending? the ending is the guy in the end told this gal.. i dun hav any more feelings toward u ... dun put any more hopes in our relationship...hahahahha...actually the main point of the story i wanna tell u is tat.. in order to let the gal 'die heart'.. u must not get close her..u must not show her any sign of giving her hope although u love her much... but for her own good.. for the sake of her"

I told someone bout the story dat my fren told me. I told the whole story. n I hurted her. I reali am. much. Maybe time can mend the hurted heart. I dunno. Im sorry to her. But sorry is no cure. I made her life complicated.. messed up n confused her mind. But i juz hope this time, I think rationally, think for the best, for the sake of her. I did this.

Hmm.. a great day for me!

2005-03-18T11:58:00.000+08:00

Im here to crap again nia. Hmm. So so so... today was juz a typical boring day for me. But it was not when I finally hav the bravery to tell one of my bestest fren bout my SeCrEtS. haha=P I dunno y, nowadays i kenot keep my secrets well. Im juz cant help spreadin them to my frens. Quite alot frens knew my secrets d. Haha! But i dun realli mind. Coz I treat them as my close frensZ! Frens dat can rely on. frens dat can be trusted.

So.. for those frens who already knew my secrets, u guys shud be glad coz i trust u guys! muahahaha! I love u guys! thx a lot! Thx for listenin. Thx for understanding. N juz went to hav dinner with my frens. Totally forgot bout the past d. n I oso dunwan think bout it nemore.

Juz one more thg!! Damn! i din touch my hws til date. cham! alot thgs havent do leh. my chem report... maths... PA... cham! damn! 2 days left!

Im willingly to be that angel you love in the fairytale...

2005-03-16T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl.. im here to crap again! hope ya all dun mind! today my frens n i went to redbox. I've been waitin for dis day since the last day of schoolin. Coz i like to sing! sing, sing n sing! I will nvr get bored once i started holdin the mic. haha. N i will forget everyting! everyting sad. everyting hurts.

Here i wanna recommend one super nice song to ya all [for those who dunno dis song].. ---Tong Hua by Guang Liang. U gonna try to listen to dis song if u r anti-mandarin-type. Hmm. It's juz comfortable. it's comfortin. It's touchin. N the lyric was my story. I sang dat song today in redbox. I sang until i cried for the third time. Coz i wanted much to sing dis song to someone... For one last time. "Im willingly to be that angel u love in the fairytale..." "Happiness n joyousness will be our ending..."

I realli hope... it will be like dat.

Life without tears is hard for me...

2005-03-15T19:16:00.000+08:00

Today juz went for a movie with my frens. ROBOTS.. the day b4 yest.. i watched BOOGEYMAN.. The first is comedy.. the latter is horror.. but guess wat?

U r not gonna trust this. I was cryin for the whole show. They r neither horror to me nor funny to me. Im juz blinded by someone. Someone I realli love. Someone I realli care. Just let me do what i want. Just let me hold on on somethg i wanted to hold on.

Im a stupid guy. Im a useless guy. Im nobody.

The Increadible sixsome!

2005-03-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

*Imagination is more important than knowledge*

Hmm.. these pics reminded me of the good days when school juz started dis year.. The power of six.. finally we made it. We did it. A huge project ever in my life--Preservin insects. We found the hidden creativeness inside our brain. We drew from it. The creativity has been flown. A bunch of frens. A bunch of great innovators with a "bunch" of dead insects. We rule the insects world!

No words can describe. Here it is.

Get up n get goin!

2005-03-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

Erm.. thgs are getting better these days. dunno y though. Alot thgs happened. I confessed my wrong. Maybe there are sumthg more valuable for us to chase on. Perhaps, it's alwiz true dat the 1st step toward any prob is to admit that we hav a prob! Thgs in our path are full of obstacles n distractions. But it doesnt meant we juz leave them like dat. We shud solve them.

hmm. But gettin started is alwiz the hardest part of any task isnt it? But once u begin, the work will seems to move along. N i guessed I 've begun. Im slowly learnin. Duh.. neway, holidays are comin! im so lookin forward to meet my best frens n juz talk craps. Instead of stayin at home with the tired mind. Tmr is last schoolin day. Im so so so damn glad. Perhaps.. it's time to heal my heart.

Enjoy the joyousness~ *

>Haunted<

2005-03-06T07:50:00.000+08:00

It's pretty early in the mornin.. The last few days have been tiresome. i havent sleep much and it's beginning to mess with my head. Im such a dumbass lately! acting so childishly.

I didnt appreciate my attitude towards many thgs and instances. The past few days have been horribly scary, but I feel I approached it wif too much of negative & arrogant standpoint ; which, as im sure u know, is definitely not indicative of my used-to-be personality.

Thgs are changin, people are changin. I dont hav anythg concrete enuff to call my own. I've begun to hate myself with a deep, inpenetrable passion. I dunno y all these thgs r happenin... Am I overdo or overburden? duh... or am I too kind? I dunno! Im not at all stupefied with tiredness, but rather, Im frustrated n confused.

Chances of the thgs are goin to remain the way they are. I dont know how u managed to blind me so badly, I hope it would be gettin clearer soon. Dont complain bout wat's happenin. Notice I am usin proper letterin dis time. I am dead serious. As deadly serious as humanly possible.

Emotionally Exhausted. Physically exhausted. Spiritually exhausted.

Unblock my heart

aiks.....

back-

- Prom nytez - 1/10/05

Grad dinner - 30/09/05

In Summary...

5 DON'TS when u're sleepin...

07/10/2005 - Yanzi's new album!

Falled into pieces..

Fuuuihhh.. #_#

=P Rules for life! rule # 8 is super IMPORTANT! hehe.

Black...

if...

Birthday gal!

Why..

complex ion...

Where are They??

CHOKED!!

Somethg funny!~ the fantastic four??

Win-win..

Light??? my element? cool!

eeeeeeeeee..

where r u?

Emptiness..

this is my POWER~!

:: contradiction ::

...

A special chattin session...

I just did.

*UNblock his heart?*

Be an apprentice #_# ?

> Korkor didi Forever <

An Evening with Battery Dance company*

It's all about 缘份...

End of orientation* Start of hols*

Officially back ! *

* H o p e s & D r e a m s *

Fairytales...

What is K|E|N|N|Y ?

The Legend

Secrets of Life & Love ...

Wat the ...

Losin my voice...

0102030405?

Busyness

Introspection

Meaningless..

>Releasin the past<

I? U? We? They? He? She? It?

A lesson learned. A decision made.

Hmm.. a great day for me!

Im willingly to be that *angel* you love in the fairytale...

Life without tears is hard for me...

The Increadible sixsome!

Get up n get goin!

>Haunted<

UNblock his heart?

Im willingly to be that angel you love in the fairytale...